Dreams
I usually don’t share my dreams because they are too abstract to put into words, but this one seemed to make since on some level. Especially after the day I had yesterday.
Yesterday, I was having these flashes of panic all day because any day I could be the father of two twins girls! (Even though the doctor feels like my wife could carry them the full 40 weeks with no problems). My training is at the point where I see daily that giant strides are being made in my fitness. This past Sunday I ran 9 miles, although slow, I still did it and kept my HR in it’s zone with NO probs and had no pain in the areas of my body mentioned in previous post.
So yesterday I started looking at the calendar and thinking about the what if’s, the unknown! Even after my wife reassured me that we have a plan and support that will help to ensure I am in able to train when the girls arrive. I still had moments during the day when panic smacked me around, but by the end of the day I was cool and relax
The Dream:
A few years ago, I dreamt that I was in a race somewhere in the mountain, a place I had never been before. It was a good dream, from what I remember.
Well, last night I dreamt that I was back at that same place about to race again, but I either forgot, my equipment or I had brought the wrong kind. In the dream, my wife had gotten together enough equipment (shoes, bike etc…) to see that I was able to race. However, I was freaking out yelling because it wasn’t the exact stuff I wanted to use! There were other strange events in the dream, (rain and porta-potties) and I don’t even remember if I actually raced, but I woke up thinking to myself, “man, I was being a complete ass, in my dream!”
The dream really allowed me to remember to trust the people in my life who understand and support both my athletic endeavors and creative projects, because without them I would not be able to do, the things I have done and continue to! Thank you ALL!
That brings me to the second part of the post. I had planned a bike ride outside today, but because it was 25 with a wind chill 0f 12 (wind gust up to 20 mph) I opted for one more ride on the spin bike at the club. As I finished up the last segment of the 2 hr ride, I shuffled to a song on my ipod that seemed to help me through the rest of the workout and summed up how I’ve been feeling about the training, racing, the twins and my art!
This is also for a few of my fellow trifuelers out there pushing their training along!
I know, “that life goes by fast, and if you don’t stop sometimes to look around, you just might miss it”-Ferris Bueller
Believe I’m trying to take every second in as my life slowly changes, but I am human and I get excited sometimes!
COMING SOON:
Tomorrow I get to start working on the paint job on my new aero-helmet! Will have picks and drawings by the end of the week.
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2 comments:
OK, now for this entry. To me, dreams are a manifestation of our fears that we keep bottled deep inside. I think this dream was your fear that you are going to put all this effort into training and not be able to race. It could also be a parallel to raising our girls. We have the nursery ready. We have the diapers, the car seats, the cribs, the clothes, but do we really have everything we need to raise two little human being? That is something I worry about myself. But take this into consideration. Whether we are raising our girls, or you are running the half iron man...... It really doesn't matter what kind of materials we use to get the job done because no one remembers the "stuff". It is the end result that people will see and remember.
Just cxaught up on your blog. Interesting to say the least. Your dreams have always been interesting and the ones that you have shared have often been prophetic. You seem to have a problem with trust. You have an amazing "safety net" of people that have your back. When they say don't worry, we'll be there for you, trust them to do just that. By no means am I saying yo sit back and let others take over your responsibilities of to leave your life's details to others but trust in the knowledge that all things happen for a reason and your "net" is there to either catch you when you fall or ease the transition.
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