Dealing with Today, To Be Prepared For Tomorrow

As the arrival of the twins approaches, I find myself working in the studio less and less because of the important preparations that are needed for any expecting parents, which has taken up any spare time I have of late. Although I am incredibly grateful to be blessed with a job, the daily stress from the office has begun to take its toll on my mental space. I feel like “Thedorothyproject” is slipping away and the death sentence of a “working” artist is slowly creeping up on me. However, I do know that this is only temporary and when the girls get here all the elements of my life will be put into perspective.
On a more positive note I’m finally getting back in shape. The need for this crazy sport called triathlon is paramount to my entire well-being and mental health. As I settle back into my life post grad school, I reflect on the condition I was in both mentally and physically before going back to school. Then I think about the toll school took on my entire life during those two years. Although it was a lot of fun, I met and worked with some incredible people, and learned a whole hell of a lot about how I make work, the schedule and pace of that life nearly destroyed the mentally stable and healthy person I was prior. Now I am finding balance again and it is a struggle everyday.
I’m ramping up into full training mode and it feels great. This week I did a 8 mile run, a 3400 yard swim and tomorrow if things go as planned I’ll get on the bike for about 40 miles. Even though those workouts were hard and exhausting, I LOVED every second of it! If I could have gone to the studio instead of the work, I would be living my dream life! But, there are bills to pay, mouths to feed, dishes to wash, groceries to buy, and soon diapers to change. With all that I said I must continue to remind myself, “It could always be worst”.